Comments on: Growing Up and Growing Apart Part II

By: NR

NR — Sat, 12 Sep 2009 23:30:21 +0000

At some point we have to decide if our behavior is protecting our children or protecting an abuser. Our children grow up and make their own decissions. I never ever said a bad word about my ex husband nor would I allow my family to in front of my son….until he was old enough to have reasonable non blaming honest conversations with. Then we discussed “situations” He has a relationship with his father that he established on his own terms. Knowledge and understanding is where true safety and self preservation and honesty lives.

By: NR

NR — Sat, 12 Sep 2009 23:22:51 +0000

The truth is wherever there is an abuser there is an enabler. That doesn’t mean fault or responsibility for anothers bad behaviors. I also walked on eggshells sure I could somehow control the situation by never enflaming him. It was exhausting. and it makes us victims. I left and never shed another tear. all my enegry is now focussed on myself not anothers behavior nor trying to read the mind of an abusive man to try to protect myself. I thought doing those things was proff I loved him. Instead I prove selflove by taking care of myself

By: Susan

Susan — Thu, 25 Jun 2009 12:48:53 +0000

This was my life as well and I realize how much I enabled the behavior by making excuses and covering up for his behavior. Keeing the kids quiet and away from him when daddy was “tired” (meaing drunk) and walking on eggshells trying not to say the wrong thing that would push a button and send him into a tirade. My life changed when the hands were used on my in an aggressive way and my kids were a witness to it. Called a lawyer a couple of days later (it was two days before Christmas and knew I wouldn’t get anyone). Haven’t looked back. Embarassed that I stayed so long in what was obviously a bad relationship. Realize how how much happier my life is without that daily stress.

By: CJ

CJ — Wed, 24 Jun 2009 18:05:48 +0000

P. S. You are right that it was absolutely NOT any responsibility of yours. If my ex had ever/does ever show that side of himself to the kids, his ass will be grass!

By: CJ

CJ — Wed, 24 Jun 2009 17:57:29 +0000

Cathy,
I will say that the punching things never happened when the kids were around. He reserved that behavior for when it was just him and I in the house. Whether it was because he actually didn’t want them affected or whether he knew that I’d be a doormat when it was “just me” but that I’d kick his ass out if he behaved that way in front of the kids, I don’t know. I made sure the holes were patched, covered or otherwise hidden from view by the time they got home. They never saw that side of him. To this day, Daddy is a good guy to them and I hope that they never have to learn otherwise. It would break their hearts. Some may say it would be better or easier on me if they did know, but I soooo want them to have as normal a childhood as I can give them for as long as I can give it.

By: Cathy

Cathy — Wed, 24 Jun 2009 16:14:13 +0000

I grew up with holes in the wall and broken windows. And, ladies, I take no repsonsibility!
I remember once, as a child going to my mother and aksing her to “do something.” She responded by telling me that he was the one with the problem not her.
As an adult I’ve wondered if I would have had to dealt with some of the issues I’ve had if my mother hand taken some of the responsibility. I think it would have made a HUGE differs in the lives of her children.
Lile CJ said, she was not responsible for his actions but was responsible for her reaction. And her reaction only caused more chaos and did more damage.

By: CJ

CJ — Wed, 24 Jun 2009 14:38:38 +0000

Holes in walls and broken windows…those were the days. I remember them well and I agree, I am also partially responsible for what happened. I’ve had others say “Hell no, you are not responsible!” but they’re wrong…while I am not responsible for his actions, I am responsible for my reactions…