Submitted by Delaine
So I spent the wee hours of last Monday night having a ‘private party’ with just me, a bottle of wine, and Alanis Morissette. Of course, she was just playing on youtube… but I’ll tell you, the music from her album, Jagged Little Pill, sure did hit the spot – especially the song, Ironic. For you see, further to the last ‘date’ I went on, where the guy turned out to be a complete liar, a similar thing happened again a week later with a DIFFERENT guy!
This man spent hours talking to me on the phone. He seemed genuinely interested in getting to know me AND he said numerous times that he was looking for a serious relationship.
But when the day arrived that we were to meet me in person, he didn’t show up. Not just that, he didn’t even phone! Nor has he since…just, nothing.
So how is this ironic? My friend, it’s not because I got duped two times in a row; heck, that happens to the best of us. It’s ironic because I’d only recently decided that I WANT and am finally ready for a serious relationship. And this has required I stop being so guarded and suspicious of men, and start trusting again – a scary thing to do, I know. And what happened when I put myself back out there again? Why I got duped and dumped SUPER fast!
But the irony runs even deeper – cause you see, while I was talking to this guy, my spider senses went off a couple of times; a few things he did seemed strange, i.e. him falling asleep on the phone one night. But I brushed my suspicions off and consciously CHOSE to give him the benefit of the doubt instead: I chalked it down to me LOOKING FOR trouble (as per my habit) when there wasn’t any. But in reality, my sense were right all along! That’s a little too ironic…yeah, I really do think.
Please understand that I’m actually laughing about this – actually, that’s me up there in the photo saying, “What the h***?” I moreso feel like the universe is giving me a test – as if it’s playfully taunting, “Are you REALLY ready for a relationship, Amelia? Or are you going to return to hiding out in your fortress if your Shining Knight doesn’t show up pronto?”
But no, I didn’t seek cover and return to ‘hiding.’ Instead I shared my angst with Alanis on youtube over a bottle of wine…
And I laughed. Cause as Alanis says, Cause what it all comes down to, is everything’s gonna be fine, fine, fine!